Finally a new decade of weight!

Well I finally got into the 130 section! After three months and of course a little side stepping I have gotten past a new hurdle :) I thought about how far I would have been if I would not have taken that couple of weeks off and then I remembered where I started and how many times I never even got this far. From a size 16 to a size 8 is a damn good accomplishment and I have to just focus on that last lap :) The other day I put on a size 8 pair of jeans and thought I felt so fat-LOLOLOLOL how hilarious is that! All I had to do is take a quick look at my day 1 pictures and of course I instantly felt tons better!
So now the final stretch-well not really the finally stretch-maybe the final warm=up-life itself is the stretch. Keeping my health and weight are a part of the tools I need to do the things I am here to do.
Good luck to those who are just starting out-or just thinking about starting out. Every day is the chance to start something that will have a significant impact on the life you live.

final stretch

well the final stretch is upon us and although I have had a few weeks where things didn't go exactly as planned-I am still 36 lbs, 8 inches in waist, 10 inches in hips and 3.5 sizes smaller than when I started so no matter what the results in a couple of weeks, I have achieved a lot and when it comes down to it- I just FEEL better. I love trying on a pair of pants that I bought on sale cause they were cute (but two or three sizes too small) and have them be too big! It has cleaned out my closet and I am down to just about nothing to wear-but I will take that problem from the smaller size any day!
It's funny how we immediately get rid of our fat clothes-but we always hold onto our skinny clothes! This is great-I don't even have any clothes that are the size I am getting in to!
Other than just the outside-which I am NOT minimizing-it is VERY important-anyone who says it isn't important at all is lying!
I just feel better inside-physically and psychologically. Even when I do have something like a three-day weekend that is centered around eating, I don't feel quite as bad-knowing I am not going to gorge and also knowing even if I do eat more than I should (which I am much more aware of now) I have a system to get myself back on path and it is easy to do that-
ramblings after a great Memorial Day weekend with family and friends-and plenty of BBQ!

25 down-25 to go!

The smell of fresh pizza slowly fills the room with a wonderful sensation of goodness. My stomach revolts and my legs are leading me to the kitchen-but I CAN"T DO IT! I have come this far and I already ate mexican food yesterday :(. It never really seems worth it after I'm done.....Tomorrow I am going to put myself back on day 1 of the program. My BFF is starting the program and I have slacked off somewhat, so this will be a great time to jump start myself again. Plus, I am going to go back to the gym Y E A H!!! Funy how it takes so long to get in the habit of something good like the gym and only a few days to break it! Of course I want to win the contest so Brandy will have to dress up and we can all laugh and have fun at her silly expense (sorry brandy), but I also love the feeling of piling up a load of jeans and slacks to give away cause they are too big for me now! Oh yeah, there's the whole health thing-but honestly, that isnt what makes me do this day after day-I want to look good and in doing so-I feel good. I know I will be happy about being healthier-but right now I am just not there yet-I am in the superficial arena and I' OK with that-if that's what it takes for me to be healthier-so be it!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

week 8 and pic

well now that I am officially half way there I keep thinking about those two weeks when I either didn't lose a pound or gained a pound- I put myself two weeks behind where I wanted to be... and then I stop to think about the fact that I have lost 25 pounds! that's 6 inches off my waist and 8 pounds of junk out of the trunk! Guess I feel a whole lot better now than when I was thinking of those two lost weeks. I'm actually surprised I have managed this far anyway.....
lots of stress going on right now-my own stress and the friends with marital problems, health problems, business problems... and when I am driving in my car I can't help but let my thoughts drift to my dear friend Denise and how unfair it is that she didn't get to stick around this earth to see her kids finish growing up or take one more photo or time to laugh one more time about our crazy trip to Mexico....
I can't help shed the tears alone in my car. tears of anger and hurt and fear. tears of loss and lost opportunities. I want to hold even closer to the things in my life: the people who have made their way along my path at some point and at the same time fear the loss of them. I mourn. I mourn for the family of my friend. I mourn for the part of me that is so full of grief I have a hard time breathing some days. I mourn for the heart that seeks answers to so many questions.....
and I take one more step, one more breath....

tucked my shirt in!

today i tucked my shirt in my jeans for the first time in 6 yrs! woohoo. it's the little things that make a difference-that and getting rid of a whole stack of pants that are now TOO BIG!
great new snack/meal idea: take lettuce and roll up a thin deli slice of ham and a 1/2 a string cheese-this is so good and you can have four as a meal-although two are filling enough. add a little relish for some zang!

slacker week

well I gained a pound this week-I guess it was bound to happen. I can't imagine that it had ANYTHING to do with that mexican food I ate the night before weigh in! LOLOLOL well real life has to still take place. Lost 3 pounds of fat and gained 4 pounds of water so that's at least good :) Guess I better not decide to cheat the day before I weigh in-besides that mexican food gave me a headache and stomach ache-guess I'm not used to eating junk..... the fact of the matter is I'm still down 5 inches in my waist and when I started 16's were tight on me and now 12's are quite comfortable to the point that they are about to be too loose!
stay tuned............