Now What?

now that the weight is gone, and the body begins to go through this new phase-of healing and recovering from all that excess-what's next? the eating pat is just a part of living, just a new way of life; more alive and fresh, more clarity to see beyond the fog and haze of today and into the brightness and warmth of the days ahead.
we begin this new journey by cycling through other places, both in a physical reality as a group and within a spiritual place that each of us must go alone. we will take this new path to step outside of ourselves and reach out to others who have no relation and from whom we get no other benefit other than to have that feeling within us that we have given rather than taken.
join us on this new journey. our new Facebook group is Gut-Less Wonders!

Finally a new decade of weight!

Well I finally got into the 130 section! After three months and of course a little side stepping I have gotten past a new hurdle :) I thought about how far I would have been if I would not have taken that couple of weeks off and then I remembered where I started and how many times I never even got this far. From a size 16 to a size 8 is a damn good accomplishment and I have to just focus on that last lap :) The other day I put on a size 8 pair of jeans and thought I felt so fat-LOLOLOLOL how hilarious is that! All I had to do is take a quick look at my day 1 pictures and of course I instantly felt tons better!
So now the final stretch-well not really the finally stretch-maybe the final warm=up-life itself is the stretch. Keeping my health and weight are a part of the tools I need to do the things I am here to do.
Good luck to those who are just starting out-or just thinking about starting out. Every day is the chance to start something that will have a significant impact on the life you live.

communication

funny how when you really look at things the single greatest factor to anything failing seems to be a lack of communication we assume people should know what we are thinking or doing without actually TALKING about it! someone has told me that i think i am better than others because i am a better communicator. what an insane statement! how can i be a better person if i don't communicate better? how can i better myself without always working on being a better communicator? if i don't consistently work on that and improve myself then am i lessor? i think so. if i am not moving forward then i am moving backward. that's my state of mind. i do not profess to have what works for you-only for me. so i don't think i am better than anyone else-i do think i am better than I was-yesterday---and not as good as I will be- tomorrow.

IN AND OUT OF A NEW SIZE

I never thought a "diet" would do me any good-will power is just not my thing when it comes to good food. Food is the center of a number of things we do-celebrate everything from birth to death...I just happen to like food-not like I gorge or anything, you just don't realize how many calories and how much fat you consume while you are having happy hour and hanging out with friends. You have to have chips n salsa with your mojito don't you know, and then you might as well have some queso and guacamole to go with that, right?! Low Carb has never been a good idea for me-or so i thought..I figured it was just a way to set myself up for failure.
Something happened today-I went to go put o a pair of slacks and couldn't find a pair to fit! that's how long it's been since I have beeen at this size-everything is too big :) I jumped on the dea of a nice suit-after all a year ago a got a number of them too small on purpose so that "someday" I would be able to wear them-THEY ARE TOO BIG!
so now I am actually wearing a decent size but don't have a thing to wear-LOL
I started down this path as an experiment, to check out a product I didn't know or necessarily think wold work as good as the claim.....pretty hard to lok at al the clothes o the floor and not believe this thing works :)

week 6

well i essentially stayed the same-actually i gained some last week and lost it this week so i thought i was down 24 lbs but i was actually down 20-so oh well. i did cheat a bit and the stress of denise dying took a toll on me this past week. but she made sure to encourage me everyday-the same way she did 15 yrs ago when i first started college-so this week's for her. i will be back on track and now have more reason than ever to do all i can to take care of myself. life stills throws us curves but i don't want to accelerate anything that i may be able to prevent.
seeing her kids at the chapel was hard-not only for their sorrow but for all the years in between that we all lost. no more putting off until tomorrow.
take time to go have lunch with a friend. no matter how tired you are-or how bad your day has been-it's important to take today and get everything out of it that you can. we are not promised tomorrow.

DAY 6

woke up in a sweat thinking i was buried in a field of spinach....woke up and discovered that i wasn't which was actually disappointing! 1 1/2 more days and i can add some vegies back into the mix:) if, at 5, you would have told me that someday i would be begging for a bowl of spinach i would have thought you were totally insane! if i don't get some soon i may just go crazy myself!!!!
weigh in is less than 24 hours away and honestly, this is the first time i have actually thought about it. wonder if i will like what i see when i step on the plate? wow-just thinking about it has made me anxious-best not to dwell on it too much or it could have me running in a panic (towards Mickey D's! ) lol
gotta remember to laugh at myself through this.
sat on a bench by the lake today for two hours doing NOTHING. i dont DO nothing-it is a very foreign concept to me. i'm the one that has spent the past few years thinking a 40 hr work week was "part-time"- it was GREAT! sometimes not doing anything is doing every possible thing good for you!

DAY 2

well today has not been too bad. of course i have a slight headache from the caffeine withdrawls! how do you have a chain of coffee shops one moment and then cut off coffee the next??????!!!!!! insane! i miss a good cup of coffee in the middle of the day-i can have some but no cream and sugar-so what's the point!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH
cottage cheese? who eats cottage cheese-OMG that's so gross! Gotta find something to fill that space....
ok so what can i have? i think i am just being a little unreasonable right now

DAY 1 pics

ok this has been a horrendous morning! took day 1 pics this morning. i can't bring my self to post them, but this is the deal so here i go. i can only bear to show one from the back-its bad enough. after i make it through this for a couple weeks i will post others from day 1 for comparison. for now, this is all i can do.