25 down-25 to go!

The smell of fresh pizza slowly fills the room with a wonderful sensation of goodness. My stomach revolts and my legs are leading me to the kitchen-but I CAN"T DO IT! I have come this far and I already ate mexican food yesterday :(. It never really seems worth it after I'm done.....Tomorrow I am going to put myself back on day 1 of the program. My BFF is starting the program and I have slacked off somewhat, so this will be a great time to jump start myself again. Plus, I am going to go back to the gym Y E A H!!! Funy how it takes so long to get in the habit of something good like the gym and only a few days to break it! Of course I want to win the contest so Brandy will have to dress up and we can all laugh and have fun at her silly expense (sorry brandy), but I also love the feeling of piling up a load of jeans and slacks to give away cause they are too big for me now! Oh yeah, there's the whole health thing-but honestly, that isnt what makes me do this day after day-I want to look good and in doing so-I feel good. I know I will be happy about being healthier-but right now I am just not there yet-I am in the superficial arena and I' OK with that-if that's what it takes for me to be healthier-so be it!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

looking otside of ourselves

part of being healthy is remembering that we need to be looking outside ourselves at others who have needs we can help with..i am very proud of my daughter for being selected to be a part of project nambia 09 (see the group on Facebook). a friend of mine has been talking some lately about heart health ( the emotional heart) and it makes a lot of sense. if we have ugliness and bitternes inside then no matter what we do to the outside we are still increasing our negative health risks. we are human and we have many shortcomings, but to ignore them is dangerous. this nation elected a president that stood on a platform of change and regardless of whether or not you, i or we disagree with anything else he says-one thing is sure: we need to make some radical changes and the only way to do that in a real and meaningful way is to change ourselves. make amends with someone, change an attitude we have, whatever it is-if we all make some change, if we reach out to others, from our neighbor to a stranger in a distant land-only then we will be who we were intended to be!