time to exercise???

The thought of exercising makes me tired :) although I always feel better once I leave the gym...it's the getting there that's the hard part! PLUS, MOST GYMS ARE FULL OF PEOPLE WHO DON'T LOOK LIKE THEY NEED T BE THERE. I guess that's the whole point of it-if you go on a regular basis-that's what will happen to your body. Eating better is only half of it. So....it's time to get serious and find a place to work out. I would really rather take my bike to the lake and ride, but I know that I need more than that. Besides, there's only 6 weeks left in the contest and I intend to win! I guess it's more than just that-although I do have a very competitive streak in me :) I really do feel so much better-but when I think of how great I will look and feel 6 weeks from now I get pretty excited about it. It's been a long time since I could actually feel comfortable wearing form fitting clothes. Why is it that when we gain weight we wear clothes that are even bigger? For one thing, it makes us look even BIGGER and another, we end up fitting into those clothes cause there's room to grow-talk about self-defeating behavior!!!!! There's an article coming out next week about the weight-loss clinic and Dr. Casad (the medical director) that interviewed me-they put the day 1 photo and the day 45 photo-OG did I realy look like that 2 months ago???? UGH. Oh well, I don't look like that now :)!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WEEK 3

WELL I LOS 3 LBS DURING WEEK 2. I WAS A LITTLE FRUSTRATED BECAUSE I ACTUALLY THOUGHT IT WAS 4-5 BUT 3 IS BETTER THAN NOTHING! I THINK I SLACKED A LITTLE KNOWING I DID SO GOOD THE FIRST WEEK. MAYBE GOING TO THE GYM HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT-WHO KNOWS BUT I AM NOT GOING TO OBSESS OVER IT. UP TO AT LEAST 45 MIN AT A TIME ON THE TREADMILL-BUT I WOULD RATHER BE OUTSIDE WALKING. HOPEFULLT THE WEATHER WILL PERMIT THIS WEEK WHILE I AM IN FLORIDA. PICS TONIGHT

W2 D6

missed a few days trying to get a schedule set-added going to the gym-first day was great! felt so energized after :) second day was pretty good but today was the third day and I can definitly fel it.
I don't feel my mood swings as much as the people around me seem to see them. Have to work on that.
My daughter thinks I'm a little crazy to be doing this "in public". Maybe I am. This is becoming more than just a test to see if this MEDI program works. It has brought to the surface many things: personal, spiritual, professional, physical....
I used to spend time in my professional life working hard to make other people look good. Taking second chair seemed to be OK for me. Sitting in a meeting letting someone present MY work. Every good organization needs a good second in command, but to stand in the shadows when I know I need to be out front is an injustice to myself and to the group with whom I am working.

week 2 day 3

sorry forgot to post new pics-here is same pose week 2. a little change-but of course just the beginning....

went to the gym today for an hour and a half. suprised myself by staying on the treadmill alone for 30 min-that is a major accomplishment for me.

the worst part of the day is after 8pm..argh i just want something to munch on-for the sheer oral fixation i guess.?? who knows

the people at the clinic stress not to have anything after 7 and i am working on it.....if i really have to have something i go for the slices of turkey pepperoni in the microwave-it's the best-thanks Dr. Lopez for that tip! (just put 17 slices of turkey pepperoni in the microwave for 40 secs or so-nice crunchy snack for under a hundred calories :)

getting a little impatient...maybe the lack of caffeine?

isn't it funny how we slowly allow ourselves to become so dependent on all these vices?!

i don't want to be too dependent on anything-even health nuts can take it too far-what we (i) need to be focused on is finding some BALANCE....